Parable told by the Priest
BEFORE THE LAW stands a doorkeeper. To this doorkeeper there
comes a man from the country and prays for admittance to the
Law. But the doorkeeper says that he cannot grant admittance at
the moment. The man thinks it over and then asks if he will be
allowed in later. "It is possible," says the doorkeeper, "but
not at the moment." Since the gate stands open, as usual, and
the doorkeeper steps to one side, the man stoops to peer through
the gateway into the interior. Observing that, the doorkeeper
laughs and says: "If you are so drawn to it, just try to go in
despite my veto. But take note: I am powerful. And I am only the
least of the doorkeepers. From hall to hall there is one
doorkeeper after another, each more powerful than the last. The
third doorkeeper is already so terrible that even I cannot bear
to look at him." These are difficulties the man from the country
has not expected; the Law, he thinks, should surely be
accessible at all times and to everyone, but as he now takes a
closer look at the doorkeeper in his fur coat, with his big
sharp nose and long, thin, black Tartar beard, he decides that
it is better to wait until he gets permission to enter. The
doorkeeper gives him a stool and lets him sit down at one side
of the door. There he sits for days and years. He makes many
attempts to be admitted, and wearies the doorkeeper by his
importunity. The doorkeeper frequently has little interviews
with him, asking him questions about his home and many other
things, but the questions are put indifferently, as great lords
put them, and always finish with the statement that he cannot be
let in yet. The man, who has furnished himself with many things
for his journey, sacrifices all he has, however valuable, to
bribe the doorkeeper. The doorkeeper accepts everything, but
always with the remark: "I am only taking it to keep you from
thinking you have omitted anything." During these many years the
man fixes his attention almost continuously on the
doorkeeper. He forgets the other doorkeepers, and this first one
seems to him the sole obstacle preventing access to the Law. He
curses his bad luck, in his early years boldly and loudly;
later, as he grows old, he only grumbles to himself. He becomes
childish, and since in his yearlong contemplation of the
doorkeeper he has come to know even the fleas in his fur collar,
he begs the fleas as well to help him and to change the
doorkeeper’s mind. At length his eyesight begins to fail, and he
does not know whether the world is really darker or whether his
eyes are only deceiving him. Yet in his darkness he is now aware
of a radiance that streams inextinguishably from the gateway of
the Law. Now he has not very long to live. Before he dies, all
his experiences in these long years gather themselves in his
head to one point, a question he has not yet asked the
doorkeeper. He waves him nearer, since he can no longer raise
his stiffening body. The doorkeeper has to bend low toward him,
for the difference in height between them has altered much to
the man’s disadvantage. "What do you want to know now?" asks the
doorkeeper; "you are insatiable." "Everyone strives to reach the
Law," says the man, "so how does it happen that for all these
many years no one but myself has ever begged for admittance?"
The doorkeeper recognizes that the man has reached his end, and,
to let his failing senses catch the words, roars in his ear: "No
one else could ever be admitted here, since this gate was made
only for you. I am now going to shut it."
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